Was this SA and where do I go from here

2021.10.18 06:30 thadarbs Was this SA and where do I go from here

Trigger warning. Possible SA
So to preface, I (30M) had only ever been with my ex wife. She cheated and we got divorced. Been little over a year and I decided to make a tinder act. I was very clear I wasn’t ready to get serious, but felt I needed to start putting myself out there. Met a woman (36F). I wouldn’t say hit it off. We chatted briefly. Pretty dry honestly. I opened up about what happened and told her sex was the last thing on my mind and was I couldn’t give trust freely again yet. She said she understood and invited me over to watch a comedy. I show up. It was kinda awkward but luckily she had dogs and comedy lol. Anyway. We sit on her couch and cuddle. I’m for it. I crave physical touch and my “cup”. Was pretty empty. After the special, she cut the tv off. Goes to her room. Turns the tv on and get in bed and tells me to follow. This is where I should have left. But idk. A grown man, and I didn’t feel like I could. I mean, she gave my the cuddles I’d been needing. So I go sit on the bed. She puts on another comedy. And suddenly got pretty aggressive. She rolled over and started kissing me pretty hard. I wasn’t in to it. Moved my face, all that. She starts with her hands. I tell her no multiple times. She’s still grabbing my face and kissing me. ( side note. Her breath was terrible. So no chance that would get me in the mood). She is grabbing my hand and putting it in her body. I tell her no not tonight. She starts to strip. (Another moment I should have just gotten up) she keeps moving my hands and stuff. She’s talking dirty( way dirty). Im not getting it up and I’m very not into it. Keeps asking for it. Trying to take my pants off. I keep telling her no. In multiple ways. Finally I felt so pressured I just start fingering and rubbing her. She is grabbing at my throat( which I’m not used to but not sure I would be against it with someone I trust). Asking me to bite her because she likes pain. I try. Just not into it. Finally I tell her to just do it herself. She finished and keeps asking to finish me. It’s a hard pass. I stay watching the movie because honestly I didn’t even know what to do next. I doze off and wake up to her going down on me. After like two minutes I pulled her up and faked an orgasm so she would stop. She goes to bed and again. No idea why I don’t just leave. But I stayed and went to sleep. The next morning I wake up to her shoving herself against me. It’s morning so I have morning wood. She starts begging and bends over. I’m groggy and tired so I sit up and she backs into me. I do the deed and finally orgasm. She gets up to shower and I just grab my stuff and leave.
I went home and threw my new clothes I was wearing in the garbage. I took three showers that day and couldn’t get her breath off me. I still feel gross thinking about it.
I can’t say it was SA. I had ever opportunity to leave and just stayed because I felt like I couldn’t go. Maybe I just didn’t like how aggressive she was being. It’s obvious my heart wasn’t ready for sex. But now I don’t feel like I should trust dates anymore. I don’t even have the words to describe what happened. Honestly I feel raped, but at the same time, no one held me at gun point. I know my No was ignored multiple times, but I never left when I could have. How can I say I was assaulted when the only thing keeping me there was some twisted form of social pressure and guilt for her giving me cuddles so feeling like I needed to give her what she needed.
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